Hi all my faithful readers and new friends! I hope today finds you well. I am trying to soak up every last bit of sun before it is gone. I love this weather!!! High 60's to low 70's, the brightest/bluest sky imaginable, bright white puffy clouds...ahhhh. Not too hot, not too cold, and the perfect dose of natural vitamin D.
I wanted to report on the port for those of you considering getting one. Mine has healed up nicely. The treatments are now about an hour shorter because the meds run smooth and steady and there is only one poke. It is perfect and I love it. I always thought ports went out of the skin but I was wrong, it is completely under the skin so no maintenence on my end either...sweet!!!
In other news, I have a confession to make. I cannot sew! I know, what kind of mother am I? I have, however had a sewing machine in my possesion for the last 3 years, it is the old Kenmore type that is built into a table, so I have been using it as a table and the dust on the machine is crazy! But, my IVIG nurse said, hey we are together for 6 hours anyway, want to learn to sew...would I? Yeay!!! I now have a new hobby, and homework:)
That is about it for an update, I hope you all find yourselves well and happy and strong!
Jen
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Med changes, job changes, surgery, oh my...
So you were probably all thinking...hmm, Jen has been quiet, she must be feeling great! Well, I was, and then bam, I found out that I was losing my job. The job that I have loved for 3 years, in the field I have specialized in for over 13 years. As you can imagine my stress level went through the roof and my MG did not react well at all. Things will be okay and everything happens for a reason so I will not go into detail here other than to say I am at peace with it and I am reassessing what this means for the future. And on to med changes...
I saw my neuro in late August and he said that I am really not improving at a rate that he would like to see. That was actually good news for me because it means there is hope for more days without symptoms. My average day lately has me with double vision about 50 percent of the time, needing the walker for at least a few hours, and periods of swallowing and speech difficulty. I have also had fatigue greater than I can put to words and pain in my back and neck that does not easily relieve itself. I stretch, I walk, I do deep breathing, I take meds, I am still in pain.
So for the med changes, I am now on double the dose of IVIG every week. Instead of a 4 hour treatment (which I loved because it flew by) I now have a 6 hour treatment every week. Also, my veins just can't take the constant IV's so on Monday I had surgery to have a port placed. The surgery went well but the anesthesia caused a pretty severe MG flare for the next couple of days. Today I feel like I am back to my "normal" weakness level so that is a good thing. My doctor also upped my Cyclosporine dose back to 100mg a day and the stomach issues are back with a vengence..yuck! He said if that continues then we will switch to a different long term immunosuppressant or try Rituximab.
Say some prayers for my poor battered skin. It turns out the more you are exposed to chemicals the greater the chance for an allergic reaction. I am allergic to tape, tegaderm, opsite, and band aids. My skin actually blistered and tore off with the tape removal and I look like a burn victim in spots...not fun on top of everything else.
Other than that, and I know it is alot, I am hanging in there, keeping my spirits up. The family is doing great. School is in full swing so we have been busy with homework and what not. I hope all of my readers are well and enjoying the fresh fall air.
I saw my neuro in late August and he said that I am really not improving at a rate that he would like to see. That was actually good news for me because it means there is hope for more days without symptoms. My average day lately has me with double vision about 50 percent of the time, needing the walker for at least a few hours, and periods of swallowing and speech difficulty. I have also had fatigue greater than I can put to words and pain in my back and neck that does not easily relieve itself. I stretch, I walk, I do deep breathing, I take meds, I am still in pain.
So for the med changes, I am now on double the dose of IVIG every week. Instead of a 4 hour treatment (which I loved because it flew by) I now have a 6 hour treatment every week. Also, my veins just can't take the constant IV's so on Monday I had surgery to have a port placed. The surgery went well but the anesthesia caused a pretty severe MG flare for the next couple of days. Today I feel like I am back to my "normal" weakness level so that is a good thing. My doctor also upped my Cyclosporine dose back to 100mg a day and the stomach issues are back with a vengence..yuck! He said if that continues then we will switch to a different long term immunosuppressant or try Rituximab.
Say some prayers for my poor battered skin. It turns out the more you are exposed to chemicals the greater the chance for an allergic reaction. I am allergic to tape, tegaderm, opsite, and band aids. My skin actually blistered and tore off with the tape removal and I look like a burn victim in spots...not fun on top of everything else.
Other than that, and I know it is alot, I am hanging in there, keeping my spirits up. The family is doing great. School is in full swing so we have been busy with homework and what not. I hope all of my readers are well and enjoying the fresh fall air.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Late July through August...Lovin' Summer
Well, Yes I have been a bad girl. Hopefully the long pre diagnosis post made up for the gap in postings. You see, we feeble humans tend to fixate on what is exciting or devastating and forget about the in betweens yet it is the in betweens that spice up our lives. So I will try to keep posting, I cannot say how often but as often as I am able, to let you know how I am doing and how the spices are treating me:)
Today I received my IVIG. These weekly treatments, along with the change in meds from Imuran to Cyclosporine have really helped my symptoms. The summer has been great! Alot of time with family, reconnecting with old friends that passed through town, and making wonderful new friends through the MG support group, the BiCuspid Valve Foundation, and my blog.
I can't tell you how much it means to me when I hear from readers. These posts and updates are for you. Whether you are newly diagnosed and want to hear what it is like for me and this disease or you are a friend or family member looking for more information. That is the whole reason I created this site...for you! And your feedback has been comforting, rewarding, and fulfilling. For those of you actually going through the illness, the reason I named this site me and MG is due to the fact that while we share a common bond our stories and paths are as different as our fingerprints. Yes we all have fingerprints but the intricacies are all different.
I am happy to report that my disease seems to be easing up quite a bit. With help from a very knowledgable and compassionate team of doctors and the support of family and friends I am starting to feel like Jen again! Yes, I still battle weakness and fatigue but I am learning how to live with this disease. I don't feel so lost and I definitely do not feel alone.
I am sad to see summer come to a close. The busy back to school season is upon us and Halloween stores are cropping up reminding us that the laid back life is coming to a close. The kids are excited to start their new school year and get back in touch with their friends they have missed over the summer. I can't say I will miss the 90 degree weather as that has wreaked havoc on my weakness. I am so happy to be able to open my windows and let the fresh crisp air in the house in the evenings. But I will miss our family gatherings by the pool and dread the thought of snow! Yikes, did I just use the "S" word? Anyway, like I said I will try my best to post more regularly and THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.
I wish you all well,
Jen
Today I received my IVIG. These weekly treatments, along with the change in meds from Imuran to Cyclosporine have really helped my symptoms. The summer has been great! Alot of time with family, reconnecting with old friends that passed through town, and making wonderful new friends through the MG support group, the BiCuspid Valve Foundation, and my blog.
I can't tell you how much it means to me when I hear from readers. These posts and updates are for you. Whether you are newly diagnosed and want to hear what it is like for me and this disease or you are a friend or family member looking for more information. That is the whole reason I created this site...for you! And your feedback has been comforting, rewarding, and fulfilling. For those of you actually going through the illness, the reason I named this site me and MG is due to the fact that while we share a common bond our stories and paths are as different as our fingerprints. Yes we all have fingerprints but the intricacies are all different.
I am happy to report that my disease seems to be easing up quite a bit. With help from a very knowledgable and compassionate team of doctors and the support of family and friends I am starting to feel like Jen again! Yes, I still battle weakness and fatigue but I am learning how to live with this disease. I don't feel so lost and I definitely do not feel alone.
I am sad to see summer come to a close. The busy back to school season is upon us and Halloween stores are cropping up reminding us that the laid back life is coming to a close. The kids are excited to start their new school year and get back in touch with their friends they have missed over the summer. I can't say I will miss the 90 degree weather as that has wreaked havoc on my weakness. I am so happy to be able to open my windows and let the fresh crisp air in the house in the evenings. But I will miss our family gatherings by the pool and dread the thought of snow! Yikes, did I just use the "S" word? Anyway, like I said I will try my best to post more regularly and THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.
I wish you all well,
Jen
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Before the blog...my journey to diagnosis
So, since I have been horribly inactive I thought I would share the full, unadulterated story of what I went through on my journey to diagnosis. Warning - This Post Is Looong! I have to confess, life has been so busy and so crazy lately that I am taking this from an email I communicated to a newly diagnosed contact but it dawned on me that I didn't start my blog until after my January hospital stay so I would post it here...this is my story...
I was delivered the news that I have bicuspid aortic valve disease unexpectedly last June when I was hospitalized for what appeared to be a stroke. While performing all of the tests to see why the left side of my body was not working and the right side of my face was extremely weak (drooping eyelids, slurred speech, drooping mouth) they performed a bunch of scans/CT/MRI/blood tests and... a chest echo. I was discharged from the hospital with a tentative diagnosis of either anxiety due to stress (though I revealed that life was going quite well aside from the fact that I was hospitalized on my 10 year wedding anniversary) or complex migraines (which was funny to me since I have suffered migraines since I was 16 years old and this “stroke” event did not have the vision auras or any head pain…at all that always accompany a migraine).
Two days after my 3 day hospital stay I saw my GP for follow up and found out that they discharged me without even reviewing the echo. To my surprise, out of all the tests run, this was the only one that was abnormal. It showed a Bi-Cuspid Aortic Valve with insufficiency, mitral valve insufficiency, and tricuspid valve insufficiency with evidence of mild pulmonary hypertension. So, off to the cardiologist I went. The cardiologist performed a TEE which confirmed the BAD with
insufficiency but showed only mild mitral and tricuspid insufficiency and no pulmonary hypertension. He said, you are fine and your heart is unrelated to the stroke like event. I had done some research and had many of the symptoms of pulmonary hypertension: fatigue, shortness of breath, and a feeling of pressure on my chest when I did the slightest of activity. In addition to that I had extreme residual weakness of my eyes and my arms/hands and I was determined to get to the bottom of it considering the fact that I have two young children and I am the primary breadwinner while my husband is back in school. I called a friend of mine who is an RN and she said there was a local Pulmonary Hypertension clinic and gave me the number. Two days later I was in the office of the pulmonologist who saved my life, though neither one of us knew it at the time.
My pulmonologist performed a six minute walk test and after 2 minutes my oxygen SATS dropped to 80, they put me on supplemental oxygen for the remainder of the test and they didn’t go above 88. After the test was finished and I was sitting for 5 minutes they shot up to 100%. He took off the oxygen and they stayed at 100% until he had me get up and walk again, then they fell right back down again. So, he said, there is definitely something wrong with you and I promise to get to the bottom of it. I was prescribed oxygen to use anytime I wasn’t sitting in a chair or laying down, but also when sleeping. Then he one by one ordered the million dollar work up. I had a Chest X-Ray, a Chest CT with contrast, a nuclear pulmonary V/Q scan, a whole body V/Q scan, and a right heart cath. All came back normal so thankfully I did not have pulmonary hypertension. Unfortunately we had no answers except
for the fact that I had an oxygenation problem, weakness, and a Bicuspid Aortic Valve. I also found out that my aortic root had enlarged since a prior CT was performed in 2007, but it certainly wasn't causing these problems. After researching this I found out that people with Bicuspid Aortic Valves are born with connective tissue issues that make them more prone to Aortic Aneurysms, like I needed one more thing to deal with!
In the midst of all these tests I went back to the Neuro who saw me at the hospital, after an EEG he decided it must be complex migraines and wanted to put me on a beta blocker. My old doctor tried that on me and it landed me unconscious in the ER with a blood pressure of 70/50. So, you can imagine my dismay at his recommendation. I said, I am happy to try your theory if you would be willing to run some additional tests first. He was so offended that I would not try the beta blockers and that I challenged his diagnosis that he dropped me as a patient. I walked to my GP’s office in tears (they work in the same building) he told me the guy was a pompous “fill in the blank” and not to worry about him, we would figure this out together. Apparently the neuro I saw went to Harvard and thought he was a big
fish in a little pond and had quite the reputation for upsetting or blowing off patients...just my luck.
The next week I was scheduled for a pulmonary function test which was ordered by my pulmonologist. Note this is the least invasive and least expensive all the tests ordered. At any rate, I was alarmed when my pulmonologist called a few nights later to inform me that the test showed diaphragm weakness due to a neuromuscular disorder. He referred me to a different neurology office and said we may be on the
right path. I went to the appointment and after performing the exam the doctor took a step back and said “I think you have Myasthenia Gravis” this was due to the fatigable generalized weakness and the ptosis from the eye strength test. She called in four residents to show them what it looked like and explained that while there is no cure there is treatment, I said sign me up! However, she wanted to
confirm with the blood test. When the blood test came back negative she was very aloof and said, well I don’t know what it is, maybe vasculits or something. When I asked if I could try a trial dose of Mestinon or Prednisone she said no, there is nothing more I can do for you. I later learned, when gathering my medical files that she suspected anorexia. I went from 150 pounds to 125 pounds and shrinking in two weeks and by the time I saw her (almost 2 months after my hospital stay) I was 115 due to the fact that it was extremely difficult for me to swallow! Note that for a woman who is 5’6” 115 is not considered underweight though the rapid rate at which I was wasting away sure scared the heck out of me. Okay, so that was late August.
I spoke with my GP and he referred me to the University of Michigan. He personally called the head neurologist to discuss my case and by early October I was in Ann Arbor and hopeful for some answers. After going through my 3rd neurological exam, my second EMG, my first single fiber EMG, and more blood tests, the head of Neurology diagnosed me with “suspected sero-negative generalized Myasthenia Gravis.” The only thing he was scratching his head at was the rapid rate at which
my oxygen fell with any level of activity but he did start me on
Mestinon (this was later confirmed to definitely be due to the MG but more on that later). My dad had taken me to that appointment and I was so anxious for any type of relief that I made him drive straight to the nearest pharmacy in Ann Arbor. I took my first mestinon and 30 minutes later I did not sound like I had marbles in my mouth and I could read the highway signs. I said, “dad, this is it, they finally
figured me out!” I was ecstatic!
The prescription called for me to take 30mg of Mestinon every 4 hours and titrate up until I had side effects…i.e.I ran to the bathroom with what was second only to the urgency of a colonoscopy prep. That dosage was 60mg every 4 hours and so my journey began. A few weeks later I called U of M because while the Mestinon helped me during the day, after I slept I could not move my arm to turn off the alarm clock
and was so weak that a few times I fell after getting out of bed. I was also starting to feel kind of dizzy. The neurologist prescribed Mestinon Timespan for bedtime so the Mestinon wouldn’t wear off while I slept. It worked like a charm for my morning strength but the dizziness was still there, I felt like I had just stepped off a boat, or had a few too many cocktails.
Four weeks after my tentative diagnosis and med trial I had a follow up scheduled with my pulmonologist and new cardiologist. To my amazement I passed the 6 minute walk test without oxygen…bye, bye oxygen tank! I literally happy danced myself out of the office (albeit weak and out of breath, I didn't care I got to ditch the tank)!They said my diaphragm must have been so fatigued that it caused atelectasis which caused the lack of oxygenation. They said it was a pretty good confirmation of MG. So I got through November until Thanksgiving. I don’t know if I caught a bug or was just doing too much given how good I felt compared to how bad it was for 6 months
but I spent the first week of December hospitalized with a crisis. My breathing was severely affected and so were my legs. I was given 5 days of IVIG at the hospital by the pompous neuro previously mentioned who apologized to me a gazillion times and at discharge I was given a walker and In home nursing care for four weeks. At the
end of the nursing care which included physical therapy I was able to walk unassisted for most of the time. One week later I was in Ann Arbor for follow up with my fantastic neuro who confirmed the diagnosis and added prednisone and regular IVIG to my treatment schedule..
Unfortunately, I must have picked up a bug somewhere because a few days later I felt lousy, and I mean lousy. I checked my oxygen sats (I ordered a pulse ox off amazon.com when I was on the oxygen tank to monitor what my readings were) and my pulse kept shooting up and my oxygen kept dropping. I called my neuro right away and he said I was headed for a crisis fast and said I needed to go back to the
hospital. I said I didn’t want to go to the same one I had been at previously so he called the other major hospital in our city and spoke with a very kind, non pompous, 72 year old neurologist who followed his orders to a “T” and offered to assist me with any local needs I may have under the direction of my specialist in Ann Arbor. He was amazing, in my room at 8am every morning to check up on me and chat. I had 3 days of IVIg and started on bi-weekly in home treatments after
that.
The rest of the story is available here...on my blog.
Hugs and blessings,
Jen
I was delivered the news that I have bicuspid aortic valve disease unexpectedly last June when I was hospitalized for what appeared to be a stroke. While performing all of the tests to see why the left side of my body was not working and the right side of my face was extremely weak (drooping eyelids, slurred speech, drooping mouth) they performed a bunch of scans/CT/MRI/blood tests and... a chest echo. I was discharged from the hospital with a tentative diagnosis of either anxiety due to stress (though I revealed that life was going quite well aside from the fact that I was hospitalized on my 10 year wedding anniversary) or complex migraines (which was funny to me since I have suffered migraines since I was 16 years old and this “stroke” event did not have the vision auras or any head pain…at all that always accompany a migraine).
Two days after my 3 day hospital stay I saw my GP for follow up and found out that they discharged me without even reviewing the echo. To my surprise, out of all the tests run, this was the only one that was abnormal. It showed a Bi-Cuspid Aortic Valve with insufficiency, mitral valve insufficiency, and tricuspid valve insufficiency with evidence of mild pulmonary hypertension. So, off to the cardiologist I went. The cardiologist performed a TEE which confirmed the BAD with
insufficiency but showed only mild mitral and tricuspid insufficiency and no pulmonary hypertension. He said, you are fine and your heart is unrelated to the stroke like event. I had done some research and had many of the symptoms of pulmonary hypertension: fatigue, shortness of breath, and a feeling of pressure on my chest when I did the slightest of activity. In addition to that I had extreme residual weakness of my eyes and my arms/hands and I was determined to get to the bottom of it considering the fact that I have two young children and I am the primary breadwinner while my husband is back in school. I called a friend of mine who is an RN and she said there was a local Pulmonary Hypertension clinic and gave me the number. Two days later I was in the office of the pulmonologist who saved my life, though neither one of us knew it at the time.
My pulmonologist performed a six minute walk test and after 2 minutes my oxygen SATS dropped to 80, they put me on supplemental oxygen for the remainder of the test and they didn’t go above 88. After the test was finished and I was sitting for 5 minutes they shot up to 100%. He took off the oxygen and they stayed at 100% until he had me get up and walk again, then they fell right back down again. So, he said, there is definitely something wrong with you and I promise to get to the bottom of it. I was prescribed oxygen to use anytime I wasn’t sitting in a chair or laying down, but also when sleeping. Then he one by one ordered the million dollar work up. I had a Chest X-Ray, a Chest CT with contrast, a nuclear pulmonary V/Q scan, a whole body V/Q scan, and a right heart cath. All came back normal so thankfully I did not have pulmonary hypertension. Unfortunately we had no answers except
for the fact that I had an oxygenation problem, weakness, and a Bicuspid Aortic Valve. I also found out that my aortic root had enlarged since a prior CT was performed in 2007, but it certainly wasn't causing these problems. After researching this I found out that people with Bicuspid Aortic Valves are born with connective tissue issues that make them more prone to Aortic Aneurysms, like I needed one more thing to deal with!
In the midst of all these tests I went back to the Neuro who saw me at the hospital, after an EEG he decided it must be complex migraines and wanted to put me on a beta blocker. My old doctor tried that on me and it landed me unconscious in the ER with a blood pressure of 70/50. So, you can imagine my dismay at his recommendation. I said, I am happy to try your theory if you would be willing to run some additional tests first. He was so offended that I would not try the beta blockers and that I challenged his diagnosis that he dropped me as a patient. I walked to my GP’s office in tears (they work in the same building) he told me the guy was a pompous “fill in the blank” and not to worry about him, we would figure this out together. Apparently the neuro I saw went to Harvard and thought he was a big
fish in a little pond and had quite the reputation for upsetting or blowing off patients...just my luck.
The next week I was scheduled for a pulmonary function test which was ordered by my pulmonologist. Note this is the least invasive and least expensive all the tests ordered. At any rate, I was alarmed when my pulmonologist called a few nights later to inform me that the test showed diaphragm weakness due to a neuromuscular disorder. He referred me to a different neurology office and said we may be on the
right path. I went to the appointment and after performing the exam the doctor took a step back and said “I think you have Myasthenia Gravis” this was due to the fatigable generalized weakness and the ptosis from the eye strength test. She called in four residents to show them what it looked like and explained that while there is no cure there is treatment, I said sign me up! However, she wanted to
confirm with the blood test. When the blood test came back negative she was very aloof and said, well I don’t know what it is, maybe vasculits or something. When I asked if I could try a trial dose of Mestinon or Prednisone she said no, there is nothing more I can do for you. I later learned, when gathering my medical files that she suspected anorexia. I went from 150 pounds to 125 pounds and shrinking in two weeks and by the time I saw her (almost 2 months after my hospital stay) I was 115 due to the fact that it was extremely difficult for me to swallow! Note that for a woman who is 5’6” 115 is not considered underweight though the rapid rate at which I was wasting away sure scared the heck out of me. Okay, so that was late August.
I spoke with my GP and he referred me to the University of Michigan. He personally called the head neurologist to discuss my case and by early October I was in Ann Arbor and hopeful for some answers. After going through my 3rd neurological exam, my second EMG, my first single fiber EMG, and more blood tests, the head of Neurology diagnosed me with “suspected sero-negative generalized Myasthenia Gravis.” The only thing he was scratching his head at was the rapid rate at which
my oxygen fell with any level of activity but he did start me on
Mestinon (this was later confirmed to definitely be due to the MG but more on that later). My dad had taken me to that appointment and I was so anxious for any type of relief that I made him drive straight to the nearest pharmacy in Ann Arbor. I took my first mestinon and 30 minutes later I did not sound like I had marbles in my mouth and I could read the highway signs. I said, “dad, this is it, they finally
figured me out!” I was ecstatic!
The prescription called for me to take 30mg of Mestinon every 4 hours and titrate up until I had side effects…i.e.I ran to the bathroom with what was second only to the urgency of a colonoscopy prep. That dosage was 60mg every 4 hours and so my journey began. A few weeks later I called U of M because while the Mestinon helped me during the day, after I slept I could not move my arm to turn off the alarm clock
and was so weak that a few times I fell after getting out of bed. I was also starting to feel kind of dizzy. The neurologist prescribed Mestinon Timespan for bedtime so the Mestinon wouldn’t wear off while I slept. It worked like a charm for my morning strength but the dizziness was still there, I felt like I had just stepped off a boat, or had a few too many cocktails.
Four weeks after my tentative diagnosis and med trial I had a follow up scheduled with my pulmonologist and new cardiologist. To my amazement I passed the 6 minute walk test without oxygen…bye, bye oxygen tank! I literally happy danced myself out of the office (albeit weak and out of breath, I didn't care I got to ditch the tank)!They said my diaphragm must have been so fatigued that it caused atelectasis which caused the lack of oxygenation. They said it was a pretty good confirmation of MG. So I got through November until Thanksgiving. I don’t know if I caught a bug or was just doing too much given how good I felt compared to how bad it was for 6 months
but I spent the first week of December hospitalized with a crisis. My breathing was severely affected and so were my legs. I was given 5 days of IVIG at the hospital by the pompous neuro previously mentioned who apologized to me a gazillion times and at discharge I was given a walker and In home nursing care for four weeks. At the
end of the nursing care which included physical therapy I was able to walk unassisted for most of the time. One week later I was in Ann Arbor for follow up with my fantastic neuro who confirmed the diagnosis and added prednisone and regular IVIG to my treatment schedule..
Unfortunately, I must have picked up a bug somewhere because a few days later I felt lousy, and I mean lousy. I checked my oxygen sats (I ordered a pulse ox off amazon.com when I was on the oxygen tank to monitor what my readings were) and my pulse kept shooting up and my oxygen kept dropping. I called my neuro right away and he said I was headed for a crisis fast and said I needed to go back to the
hospital. I said I didn’t want to go to the same one I had been at previously so he called the other major hospital in our city and spoke with a very kind, non pompous, 72 year old neurologist who followed his orders to a “T” and offered to assist me with any local needs I may have under the direction of my specialist in Ann Arbor. He was amazing, in my room at 8am every morning to check up on me and chat. I had 3 days of IVIg and started on bi-weekly in home treatments after
that.
The rest of the story is available here...on my blog.
Hugs and blessings,
Jen
Sunday, July 18, 2010
A lesson learned...
I am happy to report that compared to the last 4 months, I feel like a new woman. Still a woman with MG, but so much better than I was. I was getting so depressed feeling like I was trying so hard to accept this illness and getting kicked down a hill day after day. Every morning I awoke to burning muscle pain and stinging joint pain, not to mention fatigue, nausea, stomach pain, and ultimately depression. Who wouldn't be depressed with a daily routine like that ending in severe muscle weakness and double vision by the afternoon clear into the evening?
Anyway, the lesson I learned is that just because I have this new illness I am still learning to live with it is important to listen to my body. Had I done that I might have called the doctor in April and explained how lousy I felt every day. Instead I convinced myself that it was just something I had to accept and that was how life was going to be for the rest of my days. I have many friends with MG and they have fluctuations in their illness and continue on so I just had to put on my big girl pants and get on with it.
Well, now I know it was not the MG but the Imuran. Most MGers to great on it, even though it takes up to 18 months to show success (also contributing to me chalking all of my problems up to the MG, I was supposed to be patient after all). Well, I am one of the small percentage of people whose liver does not tolerate Imuran, so I beat mine up for 4+ months giving the medicine the old college try.
I feel like I have stepped out of a dark fog. Yes, I still have weakness and double vision and pain but nothing like I have put up with for almost 1/2 a year. A lesson learned indeed, and I am so greatful that there isn't any lasting damage. Until next time - God Bless - Jen
Anyway, the lesson I learned is that just because I have this new illness I am still learning to live with it is important to listen to my body. Had I done that I might have called the doctor in April and explained how lousy I felt every day. Instead I convinced myself that it was just something I had to accept and that was how life was going to be for the rest of my days. I have many friends with MG and they have fluctuations in their illness and continue on so I just had to put on my big girl pants and get on with it.
Well, now I know it was not the MG but the Imuran. Most MGers to great on it, even though it takes up to 18 months to show success (also contributing to me chalking all of my problems up to the MG, I was supposed to be patient after all). Well, I am one of the small percentage of people whose liver does not tolerate Imuran, so I beat mine up for 4+ months giving the medicine the old college try.
I feel like I have stepped out of a dark fog. Yes, I still have weakness and double vision and pain but nothing like I have put up with for almost 1/2 a year. A lesson learned indeed, and I am so greatful that there isn't any lasting damage. Until next time - God Bless - Jen
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
One Mississippi, Two Mississippi...
Ahhh, what a week. So, rewinding to last week I only worked Tuesday. Wednesday my lovely mother in law drove me to Greektown Casino to stay at the new hotel, very nice by the way, and have some fun pre neuro appointment in Ann Arbor. While I can't post on any new exciting winnings I was able to play from noon until 1am on 40 dollars so Chuckie Cheese for kids provided well. The last three hours I lost the $100 I won while waiting for my momma in law to return from her gambling bliss. I had gotten too weak to walk the floors in search of her and was afraid if I left my seat she wouldn't find me or I wouldn't get a seat back to sit in. When she did come back I still had $34 so not too shabby.
Thursday I went to the neurologist and my liver enzymes were through the roof so off the Imuran and on to Cyclosporine. We'll see how that fares. On day 4 of it I had a major migraine with nausea and an all over awful feeling but I am now on day 5 and doing pretty well. He also said we aren't seeing good enough results with my IVIG schedule so I now have to have in home IV treatment every week for 6 weeks and if no improvement it is on to Plasmapherisis and if that doesn't work we talk thymectomy...which I am not in the mood for, If I can live the rest of my life without surgery I will be a happy woman. As it stands, pre-MG I have had too many surgeries to list on any doctor's office paperwork.
He did run a panel for other autoimmune diseases given the skin symptom (Livedo Reticularis with Reynauds) but he thought it was probably the result of the frequent IVIG and my bunk heart. Thankfully the AI panel came back clean so I think he is correct.
Tomorrow is going to be one doozy of a stressor with a chest echo at 9am to see how my heart is holding up with all this abuse and my dad goes in to have his upper right lung lobe removed...too long to explain here, just keep him in your prayers.
Other than that, and I think that is quite enough, things are staus quo around here. Going well with an a$$load of stress dumped on us. No such thing as a calm week in the Walsh household. I am hoping the new IVIG schedule brings brighter and stronger days and I am already feeling loads better without the Imuran wreaking havoc on my liver.
John is in soccer camp and loving it, band camp is next month so he has been quite busy lately. Cindy is getting cuter by the minute. Pat is up to his eyeballs in school and staying strong and focused to get his degree and I am just 'eeking out the strength I have to keep my job and our house afloat.
I would say I will post soon but whenever I do that, I fail so until next time I hope you are all well.
Hugs,
Jen
Thursday I went to the neurologist and my liver enzymes were through the roof so off the Imuran and on to Cyclosporine. We'll see how that fares. On day 4 of it I had a major migraine with nausea and an all over awful feeling but I am now on day 5 and doing pretty well. He also said we aren't seeing good enough results with my IVIG schedule so I now have to have in home IV treatment every week for 6 weeks and if no improvement it is on to Plasmapherisis and if that doesn't work we talk thymectomy...which I am not in the mood for, If I can live the rest of my life without surgery I will be a happy woman. As it stands, pre-MG I have had too many surgeries to list on any doctor's office paperwork.
He did run a panel for other autoimmune diseases given the skin symptom (Livedo Reticularis with Reynauds) but he thought it was probably the result of the frequent IVIG and my bunk heart. Thankfully the AI panel came back clean so I think he is correct.
Tomorrow is going to be one doozy of a stressor with a chest echo at 9am to see how my heart is holding up with all this abuse and my dad goes in to have his upper right lung lobe removed...too long to explain here, just keep him in your prayers.
Other than that, and I think that is quite enough, things are staus quo around here. Going well with an a$$load of stress dumped on us. No such thing as a calm week in the Walsh household. I am hoping the new IVIG schedule brings brighter and stronger days and I am already feeling loads better without the Imuran wreaking havoc on my liver.
John is in soccer camp and loving it, band camp is next month so he has been quite busy lately. Cindy is getting cuter by the minute. Pat is up to his eyeballs in school and staying strong and focused to get his degree and I am just 'eeking out the strength I have to keep my job and our house afloat.
I would say I will post soon but whenever I do that, I fail so until next time I hope you are all well.
Hugs,
Jen
Friday, July 2, 2010
One doozy of a week!
Sorry it has been so quiet here, I just really needed a time out. I have had a very full week, some good, some bad. Sunday I almost ended up in the hospital when my whole body stopped working. I was sitting on the couch with my 4 year old and everything gave out. My legs wouldn't move, my arms wouldn't move, my head slumped backward, and when I tried to speak my tongue fell back towards my throat. My husband knew the drill and put a mestinon under my tongue, he had to hold my body and support my head so it would stay in my mouth. I came around after a long and scary 20 minutes or so and he watched me like a hawk. Monday I had a doctor's appointment and while I was quite exhausted I was no where near as bad as I was on Sunday.
So the doctor's appointment could take up a whole blog but I will focus on the nitty gritty. while I was there my arms, hands, and feet did something that has been happening off and on for the past 6 months. I now have confirmed Raynauds (where your fingers and toes turn white upon the slightest exposure to cold, then when they warm up they turn this freakish blue/purple color. This is pretty common and as long as I keep my hands and feet warm I don't have to worry about losing my fingers and toes. The more frustrating and frightening part of the appointment was when he saw my arms. He called it Livedo Reticularis and said it is linked with 3 autoimmune diseases, none of which is MG...of course. So I see my neuro next week and am supposed to discuss it with him. I am freaked out that I have another disease on top of this and that my meds have been masking the symptoms. Though I look for blessings in everything and the blessing in this is that if I do have another AI I have been receiving treatment for it since it started and it would also explain why my MG has not been responding to treatment as well as we had hoped.
Wednesday was wonderful, I woke up feeling awful and was so weak, stressed, and tired that I just could not work. So I called in and while I was resting my Grandma called and offered to pick me up. What a wonderful relief. I had a day of quiet rest in my Grandma's loving home. No kids asking for food or attention, no husband asking where this is or that is or can I make a phone call for him, no computer tempting me to work. I just relaxed and recharged...ahhh.
I am feeling much better today. We went to my in-laws this evening and the kids played in the pool. I sat on the edge and soaked my feet and enjoyed the sun and fresh air. I am so excited for the long weekend, I hope my health allows me to enjoy it. I think that about sums it up.
So the doctor's appointment could take up a whole blog but I will focus on the nitty gritty. while I was there my arms, hands, and feet did something that has been happening off and on for the past 6 months. I now have confirmed Raynauds (where your fingers and toes turn white upon the slightest exposure to cold, then when they warm up they turn this freakish blue/purple color. This is pretty common and as long as I keep my hands and feet warm I don't have to worry about losing my fingers and toes. The more frustrating and frightening part of the appointment was when he saw my arms. He called it Livedo Reticularis and said it is linked with 3 autoimmune diseases, none of which is MG...of course. So I see my neuro next week and am supposed to discuss it with him. I am freaked out that I have another disease on top of this and that my meds have been masking the symptoms. Though I look for blessings in everything and the blessing in this is that if I do have another AI I have been receiving treatment for it since it started and it would also explain why my MG has not been responding to treatment as well as we had hoped.
Wednesday was wonderful, I woke up feeling awful and was so weak, stressed, and tired that I just could not work. So I called in and while I was resting my Grandma called and offered to pick me up. What a wonderful relief. I had a day of quiet rest in my Grandma's loving home. No kids asking for food or attention, no husband asking where this is or that is or can I make a phone call for him, no computer tempting me to work. I just relaxed and recharged...ahhh.
I am feeling much better today. We went to my in-laws this evening and the kids played in the pool. I sat on the edge and soaked my feet and enjoyed the sun and fresh air. I am so excited for the long weekend, I hope my health allows me to enjoy it. I think that about sums it up.
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